I Found a Reason

Forelsket
Of all the words that don’t exist in the English language,
Forelsket is the most beautiful.
The euphoria you experience when first falling in love.

Well, every day I wake up
and fall in love with you all over again.

It fills up the gaps in between my ribs,
and the gaps in between my teeth,
the spaces in between my fingers,
and the distance between me and you.

It ties our hearts and our minds
and our spines together,
and our roots and our branches
intertwine.
By holding hands we communicate
without speaking,
By holding my gaze you kiss me
without moving.

I fall asleep in an empty bed with our melody in my palms.
Sometimes in my sleep i talk to you,
Sometimes you speak back,
And this is when i realise that
the hardest part of going to sleep
is waking up.

I Held The Stars To Light Where You Are

It's my birthday! I feel way older than eighteen really. but still it's sad the my time of being a child is over. I've had the lovliest birthday weekend though, my beautiful boyfriend came down from North Wales on the Friday, and he left yesterday. I honestly can't explain how perfect he is. He is so understanding, and beautiful, and our brains just seem to work at the exact same frequency, he is very much a part of me. He got me a purple ipod nano for my birthday, engraved with Manchester Orchestra lyrics! He is such a sweetheart and i never want to be without him.
I think you should all check out the art work of Keaton Henson, he illustrated the Enter Shikari album and designs for Drop Dead. His characters and ideas are wonderful!

I glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings

So I'm not at school, something I'm going to have to get used to! I feel like i'm doing something bad, i feel so incredibly guilty! But it's silly. School is definitely not an option at the moment. At least being at home I'm going to be able to get so much more done. I just wish some people were a bit more understanding.

Good things are happening though, I have a website, I'm dyeing my hair brown on thursday after being blonde for 18 years, it's my birthday in 6 days, my boyfriend is coming down for my birthday weekend, and I'm getting a new camera, finally!

I have really missed taking photographs. It still upsets me that I had to watch such a perfect autumn pass and I wasn't able to photograph any of it. But never mind, there are many more autumns to come I suppose.
I have to work on my fort-bed before my boyfriend gets here! I can't wait to give him his christmas presents, I hope this is a good month!

“This is what I believe: That I am I. That my soul is a dark forest. That my known self will never be more than a little clearing in the forest. That gods, strange gods, come forth from the forest into the clearing of my known self, and then go back. That I must have the courage to let them come and go. That I will never let mankind put anything over me, but that I will try always to recognize and submit to the gods in me and the gods in other men and women. There is my creed.”

— D.H. Lawrence